Pho Pho Passed Away

My Pho Pho was 92 years old. I spent my entire life living with her. Pho pho used to wear kebaya, a blouse and kain batik. She likes it in bright colour. I still remember when I was still a little bratz, I pooped in my pants during nap, and I cried calling my mom (or was it Pho pho ya?), anyways, it was Pho Pho who clean it and calm me and wipe my tears away. Pho pho bathed me, feed me, buy clothes for me if she saw something pretty in Bangka. Pho pho likes to eat papaya, sometimes apple or pear and amazingly she can eat spicy food. Pho pho shares sweet fruits if she has any for us (my sister and me). I also remember Pho pho can drink beer during CNY night dinner. Talking about the cooking, before she was 85 she can cook very well, I love her tempe orek (cutted into cubes, tomatos, & a little bit spice). My mom also admit that Pho pho cook very well in her younger age.

Pho pho was not a lazy-like to gamble kind of grandma. She loves dogs, she loves cleaning the house, she loves gardening, she loves to cook, she loves sewing, she does anything she can and haa no idle hands. What I miss most of her, she loves to joke around and laugh, she was very funny. She loves dankdut but lately she loved top 40 because Pho pho heard the songs on the radio and play it out loud while sitting in the kitchen or in the living room. It was pho pho who fed the dog, bathe 'em, it was Pho pho who found Moli Mona, and I bet, they miss Pho pho too.

Every step that I take in my home reminds me of Pho pho. I am happy and grateful that I know her and have her as my grandma.

God knows her well, I and my family believes, She deserve a good place with Jesus, whatever her religion.

Some that I learn from this: that no matter how angry you are (which already a sin), no matter stubborn the person you talk with, he/she doesn't deserve your anger, instead all they want is just to be loved. So, use your mouth carefuly, choose your words wisely, be patient (I know this is hard), hear rather than talk, forgive, and most important just love... Love everyone.

Now my knowledge has been added by God, how He taught us the best thing and that we shall do in this life.

I miss you Pho Pho, you will be safe with Jesus. We will meet again, if God allows.

It's a Dog eats Dog World

yes it is true, it's a dog eats dog world. if you're not fast enough than you'll lose! that's why we have to observe fast, having lots of knowledge is a must, being tricky sometimes can help you, and wise is a true magic.

In term of finding love, dog eats dog world has become a theme, but they've change the title with: the game of love. You have to play the game if you wanna get the trophy (the guy you love). Not just play it with him, but you also have to play with other her (who's also interested in the guy you love). Now, who's the other dog? Of course it's the other her.

Me, playing the game of love? used to say a big “no no” for it, but now, i'm in it and hoping to win it.

Some times you feel like something that is unstylish but comfortable

My love life journey wasn't easy. On this term of relationship, I have spent almost a year and thought it won't work, but it did. No, of course it's not always pretty. how do you know what is happiness when you don't know what sadness is? I believe that life doesn't always turn like you want it to be. Never thought it would go this far.

Just like a shoes, you see that it seems so nice, when you walk with it, in 5 minutes nothing happen, but once you walk with it around 2 hours, it's starting to torture your feet. Mine is less stylish, but very very comfortable. Not every shoes store provide that kind of shoes. I'm lucky.

today's song: because of you - ne yo

A Couple is Like A Left & A Right Foot

"Let's just be friends" are cowardly, inexcusable & frankly, insulting. Dumping someone via text or email is PATHETIC.
Impossible is they broke your heart. Why prolong the agony? Say you'll think about it, & call them, maybe, in a few years.

Some things are just not meant to be. Some times you grow apart, move on. you've tried it, it didnt work, learn & leave. Dont kill each other's chances of happiness & waste years on something that will never happen.

Believe in true love & know that men are like shoes. A couple is like a left & a right foot, & out there is your perfect fit. Some times you need to change styles & shop around to find it. Some times you have to break styles in, some times you feel like something that is unstylish but comfortable, & some times a style- as much as you like it- just doesnt suit you & will never fit.


- quoted from "How to Walk in High Heels" (a book that all girls must read)

Setia Jaya

setia jaya itu sebenernya nama sebuah restoran seafood di jambi. nama jalannya g gak tau tapi yang pasti dalam selama 4 hari g dsana, dua hari berturut-turut g makan malam dsana. Jumat malam selse berenang dan Sabtu malam, malam terakhir g di jambi.

Ntah mengapa restoran itu famous banget dan selalu rame. nunggu makanannya aja seabad. tapi setelah terhidang di depan kita, wiiiiiihhhh... slurrrp pasti dah gak sabar untuk menyantapnya.

Officially Resign

its official. finally, g resign dari sini. no regrets, just look ahead!

kata one of my colleague, jangan terlalu sensitive soal hubungan loe dengan perusahaan tempat loe bekerja. maksud dia, g harusnya gak usah merasa sedih kalau mau meninggalkan tempat g bekerja. kata-kata dia bikin g sadar, emang iya ya, betul ya, harusnya g gak usah merasa sedih ya. teman kan selalu jadi teman. nanti juga ktemu lagi, di bali (tgl 9 - 11 november).
wakakakakakaka

im free, at last!


tday's song: what i've done~ linkin park

Failure Notice

Hari ini dapet amplop hasil ujian dari Panitia Standar Profesi Pasar Modal, dengan hati deg2an g coba buka hasil ujiannya. Sudah yakin gak lulus sih. G lebih khawatir soal hasil ujian my colleague, actually he was here in my department only temporary. Setelah buka, yah… dia dapet 57 and g dpt 55, beda dua point wakakakakka. Kalau dia sih pure smart, kalo g mah pure cap cip cup wakakakaka blajar sih blajar, ada diajarin dia juga banyak hal, tapi mungkin g kurang take this exam seriously kali.

Tday’s song: Note To God ~ Jojo